It’s a boy!

A completely useless resource that I hate the most in the world is AIM Mail, something my sister is fully aware of, but she still insists on sending messages through that address just because she can’t ‘remember’ my email address. It took me a few days longer than I would have liked but I received some pictures that I’ve been waiting on for a while now.

My aunt has been in the hospital for the past month due to complications with her pregnancy. Around her 7th month the baby decided that he wanted out, and badly at that. For the past month she has been in the hospital and after 3 blood transfusions due to hemmraging, they finally decided that an emergency c-section was more than necessary. A very difficult 6.5lb baby boy finally made his appearance.

This is my aunts second child but in actuality I believe it’s her fourth. She suffered two miscarriages before she had her daughter and even that was a difficult pregnancy. She’s been on bed rest with this pregnancy for quite some time now but to hear my sister telling me that she’s been in the hospital for the last month having serious complications is nothing more than heart wrenching.

I’m not sure when I’m actually going to meet my new cousin. I’m not going to say Christmas because I know for sure that I won’t be traveling up there on Christmas day and I’m positive that by the time I do get up there, everyone will be off doing their own thing. Thing is, even if I was actually in New York I doubt I’d ever see anyone anyway based on work schedules and the fact that no one really includes anyone on anything these days, for some reason.

Based on the pictures I’ll say he’s a cute kid but at the same time I was looking at the people surrounding the baby. My aunt looks horrible but a month in the hospital will do that to you I guess. My grandmother has lost quite a bit of weight since I last saw her and my grandfather looked very proud to have his 7th grandchild but at the same time this strange feeling came over me knowing that while he may be very happy about this grandchild, he’s also battling cancer at the same time.

This kind of sucks because all of these emotions are hitting me on my anniversary with Sean. I want to be happy right now, I’m with the man I intend to spend the rest of my life with but the family shit is really just hitting me really hard.