So I know I said that I had every intent to update more, but as you know – reality tends to take over internet. I’ve been floating around some blogs – some new, some old – and it’s shown me that the internet really just hasn’t changed. I’m to a point now where I’m just questioning as to whether or not I really want to be involved anymore. Working on a Bachelors in Multimedia is starting to seem like a waste of time considering I don’t have the drive to do it. I don’t even have to drive to finish a template I started on over a month ago for this domain – why even try? It’s not like I’ll ever get back to where I once was, and that was my own stupidity with all of the paid content and not enough real-life content. On top of that…when it was non-sponsored content it was basically drama because there are people in this world who were just never meant to get along.
Since then…I’ve grown and stepped away from that. It’s not my fault that some people are still holding onto bull shit but when they’re stuck in their little houses all day long with nothing better to do – it seems – it’s hard for them to let go of it to. So basically – leave the house, enjoy the fresh air, summer’s right around the corner and a few of you could seriously use a tan, don’t burn though – that would suck.
On real notes – Work is taking it’s toll on me, I’m to a point of extreme exhaustion and I could seriously use a day off. Unfortunately I don’t have enough PTO (paid time off) to even consider a vacation without screwing up my finances right now. So while I’m at work all day, Sean’s at home trying to pick up as many clients as possible and right now they’re coming out the wazoo ever since he applied (and was accepted) to NYIT. It’s going to cost A LOT of money for him to get his Bachelors in Computer Programming so he’s doing everything he can to bring in as much money as he can. If he gets lucky and can load up on scholarships and loans, plus work study, he should be able to swing it. It’s just going to be rough for a little while because I believe his everyday work will suffer and I feel like I’m going to be the one picking up the slack. My monthly income is limited and being as I have no drive for design the only option is sponsored posting so I can bring in the extra $1,000 a month we need to live.
We’re trying very hard to save up money so we can finally get into our own place. Unfortunately bills just keep showing up around us that we have no control over. I was just hit with some BS penalty from HSBC for my loan because they claim that I’ve made late payments and it’s a $150 fee. I’ve paid my loan between the 11th and 15th since the day I got it (about 2 years ago) so I really don’t understand why there’s an issue now and of course everytime I call I wind up having to talk to someone in India. I went into the bank and was told that being as it’s a different department I should just call the customer service line. Either way I’m sitting here about to rip my hair out because they’re shooting this shit to me and I honestly don’t even feel as though it’s legit. So money is tight, tensions are high, it’s just been a crappy freaking year.