Clich?ɬ©

There are clich?ɬ© statements like “When we kissed…I saw fireworks” or “My knees went weak”, but how many people can truly say they’ve felt this first hand? For the past few weeks I’ve had an ‘inside-clue’ in regards to how the universe works. There are always going to be two very important people in your life; your soul mate, and the person you’re supposed to spend the rest of your life with. In some cases you may find these two entities in one person. The rest of the time…you’ll have these two people. You may not realize it now, but if you sit back and look around – you may pick up on it.

There will always be that one person who you can have every feeling in the book for but know that it’s never going to work between you two on a relationship level. This person is your ‘soul mate’. This person will be there for you when you’re at your worst…and your best. They will make you feel as though you’re the most important person in the room and they’ll never let you down. If they ever do…they’ll make it up to you faster than you knew what hit you.

But say your soul mate meets his or her final step in life and passes away. Sure, you may have friends who care about you but you’ll never have that same connection ever again. You’ll spend months, years, and even decades comparing every person you meet to this soul mate. This soul mate is the person you felt was the true meaning of ‘perfection’ minus the relationship aspect. Even in death, this person will still be there for you. You will see them in your dreams, they will give you signs as to when they were around…a gust of wind, a shooting star, a butterfly, a cat, whatever you two had in common in life, he/she will make it known in death that your connection is still there. It’s almost guaranteed that when you die, this person will be waiting for you to help you get through that stage of ‘life’ until you can plant your feet.

Say that during your grieving for losing this soul mate, another person steps in. The person who from the get go you feel that you’re going to spend the rest of your life with. It goes to another clich?ɬ© statement of “trust your gut”. If, from the get-go, looking into this persons eyes makes you weak, kissing them you see fireworks, and you get along on levels you never dreamed of, then in some way shape or form…you’re meant to be with this person for the rest of your life.

This is the person who will fulfill all of your dreams, and visa versa. This is the person you will make a home with. This is the person you will depend on for support in the most difficult, or most ridiculous, of situations. They will always make you feel like the most important person in the room, they will go out of their way to make sure you’re taken care of, no matter what the cost. If you’re sick, they’ll be at your bed-side with soup and a magazine. If you’ve had a bad day and just want to sleep, they’ll lay down with you and rub your back until you’re comfortable enough to drift off and forget the world. This person will also be there when you wake up to make sure that the first thing you see is someone who loves you and will make all of your pain go away.

I’ve been through, and am still going through my grieving period. I have found the person I will be spending the rest of my life with. I consider myself blessed, as well as honored, to have these two people in my life, and in my after-life. I honestly don’t think I’d trade this for anything in the world.

I fall in love a little bit more every day. I see dreams being fulfilled before anything is physically set forth for these dreams to come true. I see the fireworks when we kiss and my knees are so weak that I’m surprised I can even walk. It’s unfortunate that I had to lose a soul mate in order to find a ‘true love’, because I do truly miss my soul mate more now than I ever have in the past, but I know he’s around; I see the shooting stars, I see the butterflies, I feel the breeze. The thing is, as much as I miss him – I know how much pain he was in when he was alive, and now he’s finally at peace; I would never take that away from him.

For once in my life, I’m with a good man. Not a little boy, not a wife beater, not a drug addict, not a ‘hardcore l33t gamer’…a man. A man who is working to not only improve his life, but is working to help improve mine. If you can find someone that is willing to make huge sacrifices (and visa versa) for your happiness, even if it only has 10% to do with you, that is the one true gift that you may never receive if you pass it by.

I see myself being happy for the rest of my life. I see myself having every dream fulfilled, no matter how large or small they are. I see myself being able to have the relationship that I’ve only ever heard of or an “As Seen on TV” situation. If all of this meant losing my soul-mate in the process…I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.