Long time…no post?

It’s been such a long time since I actually had the drive to blog. There’s really not anything going on right now though. I’m still having trouble with Joe’s passing, so much that being alone at night is really starting to get to me. I’m always anxious about something and it’s truly a pain in the ass at this point. I guess I just need to take a vacation, who knows.

Last Saturday, my aunt talked me into going up to Mohegan Sun with her. The casino is HUGE! I easily got lost a few times LOL. I brought up my last $10 with me, and daddy (for some reason) gave me $50. I managed to blow through his $50 in about 10 minutes, damn slot machines. I did, however, turn my $10 into $600 after I got lucky on TWO very, very nice machines. The issue is though, I got greedy. So instead of cashing out and putting it all in my pocket – I kept going with ‘bet max’ and weaseled myself down to $200. I did cash out after that, I just don’t really remember what happened – money wise – because I only came home with $48. So in reality, I lost only $12, but considering Daddy didn’t want his money back – I’m up $38. That counts for something though, right?

I’ve been putting a few dollars aside lately, and I’d like to get a little nest egg together for my next trip up there. I’m not going to say that I’m ?¢‚ǨÀúhooked’; I just know that I had a very, very good time. It was nice to get off the island for a day or so. We left around 10 am; it was a 3 1/2 hour drive up (thanks to major traffic on the bridge). We were in there for about 14 hours, and then made it home around 7am. I wasn’t that tired though, considering I don’t usually go to sleep until 8-9am anyway. What kind of freaked me out was once I went to lay down I was KNOCKED OUT. That’s not an easy thing to do, at all.

I told daddy that once I graduated, I wanted to go back up there. I’ve been working my ass off all weekend on essays. I’m totally done with all of the multiple choice questions with the course, I’m just down to two completed essays to send in and I’m officially a graduate, I’m happy about it. Heather proof-read it for me, helping me fix my punctuation mainly. So now, although all of that is ‘perfect, I still feel as though the grade is going to be a bad one. At this point, as long as it’s over an 85 – I really could care less.

The next essay that I have to work on is a small auto-biographical one which should really only take me twenty minutes to complete, however, I can’t bring myself to write the last paragraph. The first two were fairly simple; describe where you grew up and who you grew up with, the members of your household, etc. The final paragraph is to write about your most recent memory, and I just can’t do it. Anytime I’ve gone to start, all I can see is Joe laid up in that coffin looking very unlike him because of all the fucking make-up. I’ll eventually get around to knocking it out though. It’s my goal to be finished with it by this evening, and although its 6pm now, that doesn’t mean evening for me, once the sun fully goes down then its evening. So I figure sometime over the course of the next few hours things will fall into place.

I’m still looking for as many jobs as I can find, website wise. I know once all the school stuff is out of the way I’ll be going up to the hospital and applying there. My issue would be that since I don’t have a car, if they went to put me at another hospital…I’d be screwed. I don’t work well on public transportation and there’s no way to get someone to drive me out to Syosset every day, especially if it’s a morning shift. Bad, bad bad.

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In any event, I’ve said all I could say. I have to get my mind in gear so I can go write the last paragraph of this essay.

Later all!